.Friday, February 09, 2007 ' 7:54 pm Y
valentine's day's coming.
derz a big hoohaa goin arnd i guess.
vdae's a day for luv huh.
i wanna xpress out my tots n feelings abt certain issues.
rmbr i used 2 b a luv doctaa?
i used 2 help ppl in rships.
ok dat was random.
anyways.
4 diz few mths, i see my frens get hooked. one by one.
hapi?of coz i am.
bt den i start 2 realize. dey seem 2 put all their attention 2wards their bfs.
n ONLI their bfs.
dey used 2 b close 2 their gfs.
used 2 ask us out all d time.
hang out.lepak.
all dat.gone.
24hrs a day,any free time they haf,is spent wif their bfs.
dey seem 2 4get abt their frens.
d ppl dey hung out wif while they're single.
now?no calls.msgs?seldom.
ajak klua?jgn harap.
unless of coz,their bfs r busy wif sumthin.
so much so dat i feel a lil bored wif life u noe.
dat i also haf no choice bt 2 hang out wif bf everyday.
sori bf.nt dat i dun like it.
bt i wan my old life back.onli diz time,ur also in it.
now DATS life.
everyone's bz wif bfs.
wad happened 2 frens 4ever?
is ur bf ur everything?
dat sparing a few odd days 2 spend wif ur frens is sooooo tough?
dat u cant sacrifice?
its so sad wen ur frens prioritize their bfs above u.
wen dey no longer care if ur alone or bored or wadsoever.
its sad wen u can even fite wif ur frens bcoz of their bfs.
n wen yanni goes,
"sudahla kau.besarkan buto." u cannt accept it.
tink of it.its true.
n i dun juz say dat 4 fun.
REALI2 sad.so thus,this entry.
n one more thing.
once u break up wif ur bfs.
dun cum lookin bck at all ur frens.
dun cum n ask us out again n stuff.
i despise dat kind of attitude.
rships r onli part of ur life.
nt ur life a whole.
divide ur time well.life's more enjoyable dat way.
sape2 yg terase,baik kwn aku ke tak.
tu korg nye psl!
ive kept diz inside 4 too long.
2nd issue.
my bestfren.
she's happily attached now.
im vry vry vry vry hapi 4 her.
bt im so fed up dat ppl juz cnt seem 2 accept dat.
is rejection so hard 4 u 2 handle?
dat u haveta disturb a couple in luv?
yes.in luv.
she told me herself.
i noe her inside out.its nt easy 4 her 2 fall in luv.
bt she is now.n nt wif u.
so y r u still botherin her?
still tinkin der mite b a chance 4 u?
put urself in her bf's shoes.hw wud u feel?
if she reali luv or even LIKES u,she wud haf chosen u a long time ago.
yes u mite b thinkin.
y izzit dat she still treats u nicely n all.
my bestfren's a gd gal at heart.
ive nt seen any1 wif a bigger heart den her.
she cares abt ur feelings.
she also doesnt wan u 2 hate her.
she treasures every1 in her life.
bt dat doesnt mean ur d man in her heart.
face reality la.
she is in luv wif sum1 else.
if u reali luv her,let her b hapi without havin 2 feel so guilty abt u.
without havin 2 care abt ur feelings.
reali pity her at times.
u said i dun like u.dat i hate u.
ive nvr hated u as a person.
i dun even noe u.i haf no rite 2 judge u.
or say dat i hate/like u.
bt i dun like wad ur doin.
especialli now wen u noe 4 a fact she's sum1 else's gf.
even if u will eventualli get my bestfren in d future...IF.
dun b shocked if sum1 else were 2 disturb her d same way u did once.
n dun b shocked if she leaves u 4 sum1 else instead.
bcoz of all ppl,i believe in karma.
Ladysweet Yani