.Saturday, December 31, 2005 ' 11:56 pm Y
kecoh.
wassup wif titivok n nanachica sey.
i dunnoe her dat well,dat titi.
n i dun noe their history 2getha.
bt frm d way i c it.
she's probly juz depressed ovr her broken relationship
n starts blaming others 4 d mistakes she claimed dey made.
im nt tryin 2 interfere la huh.
bt nana's my fren.n i noe her.
even if she did make a mistake once.which i dint tink she did.
bt anyways.
even if she did.
dat was in d past.
she dint cause u 2 lose ur bf rite?
y rake up d past?haiyoh.
juz look at urself.
ur entry abt nana.
wad do u get by proclaimin all dat?
satisfaction.yeah.
bt nt happiness.
u wun even get ur bf back.
ppl will even feel sori 4 u.nt her.
so if u tink by doin dat ppl will start 2 go against nana?
im nt interfering.
diz is btwn titi n nana.
diz is juz wad i tink.
anyway.
ali called yest.ahha!
was unxpected la.
he's sick.
food poisonin.
told him 2 rest n i'll call him once i reach hm
bt sum ppl juz hadta slp early.(-.-)
oh well.
lets c if he calls again.
my new year's resolution...!
i wanna be me.
i dun wanna haf split personalities n hide d real me frm certain peepz
i wanna b frank abt hu i am.
yanni's wild.
well..2 sum ppl.
u cnt blame me.
considerin d ppl i mix arnd wif
u can call dem mats.minahs.gangsters.hopeless kids.
no future.blah3.
ppl hu live in a world of ciggies.booze.clubbin.nitelife.vulgarities.
even beyond all dat.
bt honestli,i am most comfortable mixin wif dem.
rather den d gd ones.
n since i also haf frens hu dun even go near all dat,
i used 2 hide wad i do frm dem..
i dun wanna let dem noe dat i involve myself in all d wrong things in life.
bt now
2006 onwards.
i wanna stop lyin 2 myself.
frens like my polymates.sum of my ex sec sch mates.
dey're so much diff frm me.
dey're nt as wild.
bt i am hu i am.
im nt gonna change.
i dun wan ppl 2 haf a bad impression of me.
i dun wan ppl 2 start naggin at me 2 change.
i still treasure my frenship wif d 'gd' cmpany.
dats y i dint wan dem 2 noe hu i reali am.
in a way im respectin their way of life.
i avoid doin d things dey dun like me 2 do.
i juz dun wan ppl 2 tink im a bad person.
bcuz wad i do,does nt define hu i am.
i am still d same yanni inside,dat every1 noes.
my character is still d same.
circumstances caused me 2 b diz way.
hey,i still care abt my future.
i still study.worry abt my results.
workin.tryin 2 b independent.
startin 2 plan 4 my future soon.
im nt d type hu juz plan 2 get married by 18 n start havin kids.
i wanna b sumbody.
yep.
so dats my new year's resolution.
weird yet true.
eh wait.
dats nt d fun part.
i also plan 2 find d perfect bf n start committing.
haf a long term relationship again.
stop changin bfs like clothes.
no more of cases of d ex.
its a whole new chapter 4 me.
time 2 get serious.
too early maybe?bt we'll c how it goes.
speakin of which.
sum1 gt my no in d smartest way he cud tink of.
was queing up 2 buy food at d changi fd place der.
he was sittin dwn near me eatin his bowl of noodles
wen he suddenli asked
"is der a vacancy at canadian pizza?"
n if u noe me,i wud start chattin wif a stranger i juz met in no time.
so we talked abt my work.
he seemed reali interested in bein a rider.
bt wen i wanted 2 leave then,he asked 4 my no.
claimed dat he wants 2 contact me if its comfirmed dat he wanna work at my workplace.
sucha fool ey yanni.
he tricked u 2 get ur no.
he admit soon aftr.
idiot.
haha.
creative way huh?
instead of"hi,leh kenal2?".lols.
he said dat if he dint tink of dat,he'd lose d chance 2 get 2 noe me.
sheesh.
LAtif.dats his name.obit siak.ahakz.
cute la he.
both in looks n personality.
boy i cnt wait 4 a whole new year ahead.
wonder wads planned up 4 me.
enjoy.
Ladysweet Yani