.Friday, December 16, 2005 ' 12:52 pm Y
im d luckiest bitch in d world.
had a fab time yest nite all 2 way 2 diz morn.
went 2 east coast wif khai[r]ianty,mum,dee n fren.
wan came ltr.
we ate n chilled at coffee bean..
talked cock..laugh our hearts out.
dee kept askin abt my opinion of her fren.
i tink he's ok.
i haf onli one ultimate criteria.he must b frenli.
haha.hate boring guys hu juz wun talk.
watai-ed aftr dat.lol.
d guys hadta leave early 4 sum rev meetin.
dee n fren left.
so we left n waited 4 khai n wan at hm.
where me n khai continued part 2 of
watai-ing.
ahakz.
i felt sumthin missin.reali.
wen he dint msg nor call.
dats y i ended up in dat state last nite.
in d end he called.
oh wow.
khai slept over @ my hse last nite.
ok we dint slp la.
talked all sorts of rubbish all d way 2 5am.
b4 we knocked off.
d talks were simply fruitful.
xtremeli profound talks.
khai told me abt his life in d past..
his xperiences..d mistakes he made..
adviced me on my lovelife..
fyi,
since i started 2 haf bfs..
khai n my sis haf been 2gether..
so dey noe abt every guy i go out wif.serious.
so we talked abt my past bfs.
abt my super special ex bf..
abt d guys im dating now.
gawd he gave me d best advice ive heard in my life.
n d best part was,d advice came frm sum1 i consider my brother.
he gave me tips too.hee.
talked abt how my sis n him met la..all their whacky stories..
thruout diz 2yrs plus ive known him..ive nvr reali opened up 2 him til yest.
i practically poured out my heart last nite.
how i felt abt everythin dat happened b4..
n i told him im fallin 4 ali.
n he told me he noes.he can c it in me.
last nite shall remain a memory.
d 3 of us bonded so well.
we're alreadi like a family.
n im happy dat finalli i can get along wif my sis' bf.
n finalli,i haf a brother 2 talk 2.
as 4 nana.
dat entry saddens me.
as much as i dun show it,i reali treasure u as a fren.
its nt abt nt meetin up often n stuff.ur rite.
bt d reason is dat ur always wif amin.honestli.
even dat time wen we celebrated my bdae at arab strt..
we wanted u 2 join us.our gossips.
our hugs.our laughters.
bt u seem 2 b wif amin all d way.
so wad r we suppose 2 do?
pull u away frm him?we dun wana disturb u 2.
n each time we ask u out 4 an outing onli 4 ladies.
u wanna bring him along.
we haf nuthin against ur relationship..
bt we feel dat we've lost our fren.
n 4 gdness sake.
we bear no such grudges abt wad u did 2 amin b4.
u tink d closeness is gone eversince u guys patched up?
n u tink we're cold 2wards 2 4 wad u did?
no such thing.
ur guilty conscious is takin ovr u n ur feelings.
dats btwn u n him.
hu r we 2 get angry or anythin..?
fine maybe der is a distance btwn u n d rest.
bt i dun c u tryin 2 improve d situation?
which onli means dat we mean nuthin 2 u.
we're no big loss.
u haf ur otha frens.u haf amin.
if u realli loved us as frens,u wudnt even mention abt pullin out frm d ladies.
i felt like an outcast umpteen times.
bt did i pull out?no.
bcuz i love u ladies.
so despite bein an xtra,i tried 2 blend in.
hang out wif u all more often.
if i can do it,y cnt u?
n yes..diz thing btwn u n dee.shudnt u 2 settle it among urselves?
y let it affect d whole of ladies?
juz bcuz of her u dun wanna cum dwn 2 meet us n stuff.
izzit fair 2 d rest?
u dun like her.she doesnt like u.
so wad,all of us split den?
maybe d 2 of u shudnt b so selfish.
u pulled me in 2 mix wif d ladies initialli.
u made me feel welcomed in d beginnin.
ur d 1st one i was close 2 wen i 1st mixed wif u gals.
even b4 i was wif nizam.
now ur leavin us.
maybe u'll tink..
"ala im onli pullin out frm d ladies
bt im still ur fren rite.nt as tho we wun c each otha anymore."
ok den.so be it.
d decision is urs.
Ladysweet Yani