.Sunday, October 16, 2005 ' 11:37 am Y
derz so much 2 say!omg!!
haha..
seriousli cant wait 2 tell all my gfs la..
vry irritating 2 blog everythin.
rememba d escape guy?
azzrafiq.
we've been rather close diz days.
he sent n fetched me frm work yest ok!
d 1st guy ive dated hu is willing 2 do dat.
even diya found it sweet.haha.
we came at d wrong timing.
uncle,aunty,diya n even d uncle nxt door were sitting outside.
so yahh dey saw us 2gether n made a huge fuss.
"ur bf ah???Wah nt bad uh.." yak3..
haha.well seriousli he does look like achik spin!
n apparentli im nt d 1st hu tot dat way.
he received d same comments frm others too.
haha.bt den..he's nt as fair la..tanned abit..
nono its nt abt his looks..
we had gr8 chemistry..
n i tink d onli diff is dat i felt sumthin.
u noe doz butteflies n ur tummy??
ive nt had dat feelin 4 a looooooooong time ok.
nt even while datin yan.
so gawd!i was surprised.
it was like..thinkin of him makes me so damn xcited in d inside.
weird!
wad do u kol it?infatuation?physical attraction?
sis called it luv at 1st sight.haha!
ive nvr believed in dat mind u.
nonsense.
n we're progressin.
nt 2 fast,nt 2 slow.
unlike d otha guys.
he doesnt drink,club,get involved wif mats..
he smokes la..bt so does all my other bfs..
he's caring..hilarious..patient..
a true gentleman..
wanted 2 carry my bag 4 me even.haha.
i dunnoe.u guys mite tink ala diz is juz anotha of yanni's xtreme infatuations.
bt truly,derz juz sumthin abt him dat attracts me..
dat makes me smile 4 no reason..
he's fetchin me frm werk again 2day!!
we had a gr8 chat frm bedok 2 changi n frm changi 2 bedok.
sat at d void deck b4 i went hm.
all d way till 1plus..
den chatted on d phone till duno wad time
n i ended up late 4 werk diz mornin.(-.-)
so damn tired..
sleep is of least importance 2 me diz days
so soon u'll c eyebags n dark circles.
eeks.
he asked me 2 follow diz fri
d escape peepz r goin 2 buy their baju raye n all.
den on d last day he's gonna go geylang wif his soccer mates.
n he asked me along.
n 4 hari raya,he asked me along 2 go out wif all d escape peepz.
n he's gonna bring me out 4 a movie soon.
wahhh lets bring me everywhere apit.
im nt even his gf.
one thing is,he's sincere.
which is gd.
can u believe he's 19 n he onli has 2 ex gfs?
dun wori im nt puttin so much hope in diz one.
bt if it works out,y nt?
sis saw dat spark in me again yest nite.
im beginnin 2 laugh n smile again.weeeeee~
derz d dark side of everythin too..
i fought wif my own dad..
hurled vulgarities..
rude hurtin words..
2 d man hu brought me up..
bt d same man hu destroyed my family..
d same man whom ive lost every respect to..
hatred..dats all i haf 4 him..
even i cudnt believe wad ive shouted at him..
i noe im in d wrong..
bt dat nite everythin ive kept 4 so many years..
all d burden was lifted frm me..
he shud noe..
he shud noe how much i hate him..
how unwanted he is in d hse..
how useless he is 2 d family..
d comfort me n my sister's livin in is all thx 2 my mum..
n ME..i dare say dat..
we're supportin ourselves..
our hse..
for gdness sake ur doin a fckin business..
so where's all d $$ gone to??ur other woman la??
we dun nid u la ok.
juz get out of d hse ASAP!
was so infuriated.
came hm probly drunk
smashed d cup la
threw chairs around la
throwin his pathetic tantrums
scolded us
i cudnt take it.
i cudnt shut my mouth diz time
its time 2 gif him a doz of his own medicine
i dun care if ur hurt
if u cried
i hate u.'father'.
k la wanna tink of d hapi stuff n 4get dat i was ever born his daughter.
muuaacks!
attracted.
bingo.
Ladysweet Yani