.Friday, September 23, 2005 ' 1:48 pm Y
done so much.2 hurt.
things a fren shudnt do.
a lie to0 many.
felt like a fool,
kept in d dark.
always wantin 2 help.
bt always unwanted.
her bestfren,im nt.
nt anym0re.
ive l0st dat privilege ever since she f0und her new pals.
cl0sed 0ne eye 0n dat.0n everythin.
y?bcuz she's alreadi like a sista 2 me.
t0lerated everythin.
all d secrets she kept frm me.
all d things she did.
bt n0w i feel
derz n0 pt in tryin s0 hard 2 save a frenship
when its s0 fragile n meaningless.
at least 2 her.
i haf 0ther frens to0.
d ladies.
frm my werkplace.
bdak2 bdk.
n 0thers frm 0utside.
bt nvr once haf i neglected her.
she receives a distinct treatment frm d rest.
bcuz she's my bestfren.
bt im receivin d same treatment as her 0ther frens.
4yrs+ ive kn0wn her.
she seems 2 nj0i d c0mpany 0f her new frens m0re.
s0 be it.
we were supp0se 2 g0 queenz dat nite.
i rushed hm frm werk.
all tired.
even slept in d bus.
bt i f0rced myself 2 g0.
uncle asked me 2 stay till cl0sin.
bt i said i cudnt.
n in d end she t0ld me she's tired.
tired?TIRED??
den wad abt me??
n wad time did she tell me?
g0in 2 9pm.
d time i was supp0se 2 g0 0ut alreadi.
lisa's alreadi 0ut.
all dressed up ready 2 g0.
imagine h0w i felt?
n wad,i shud juz g0 wif lisa 0nli?
mite as well i lepak wif d bdk peepz.
n lisa gt angry.wtf.
so fine every1 hates me n0w.
i dun giva fuck.
dat was to0 much.
ive had enuff.
n all she cud say was s0rry.
ive kept s0 much.
all d things she did..
d 0nli pers0n i talked 2 was farhan..
each n every time i f0und 0ut sumthin abt her.
watever la k.
wish u all d best wif ur bf n new pals.
frens cum n g0.
finalli i felt d pinch of it.
l0st my bf.
my family.
n0w my bestfren.
hu else???
wtf.
s0 dat nite i chilled wif sis jep0n n bdak2 bdk.
till 3am.
dey were so hilari0us.
played d guitar la.took spooky pics la..
i t0t sis jep maths.hee!
skejap je tuu.pas tu slack.wakaka.
yest yani,mum n sis fetched me frm werk.
l0ng time n0 c uh pink lady!
we lepak-ed till 12plus at my v0id deck.
yeah yanni jadi minah lepak.....g0in 0ut wif d usual rev peepz 2day.
ramai2.
wohoo!
cant wait.miss dem all sia.
g0nna isap sheesha kt arab strt.
den jln2.
weeeeee~
rashid asked me 2 acc him g0 j0h0r last nite.
0ne 0f d riders.
ala.
yani came all d way 2 fetch me tk kan nvr g0 hm wif her rite.
hee!
he said i looked diff yest.
y uh??
yani i wan d pics pls!
byee all......
Ladysweet Yani