.Sunday, September 18, 2005 ' 1:34 pm Y
2nd heatstr0ke attack yest.
it was realli toooooooo hot in der.
nearli fainted.
thx 4 ur concern nadia.
she was so worried.
i was pale.sweatin like hell.
my head hurt.
even dr0pped a b0ttle 0f chilli sauce.
nearly spilled d s0up.
gawd yanni.
put ice on my head n blast d fan 2 my face aftr dat.
felt better..yeah..
highlight of d week:
nahran,a fren of mine frm werk,
gt 2 n0e ana..my darlin gf.
dey met yest,wif me as d usual middle person.
ive nvr seen nahran so shy b4 k ana!
haha.
matchmakin again ey yanni?
naah..
went yasalam wif dem.
ana look so diff!!
miss her like..alot?
met sis jep0n,din n ashik as well.onli dem.
talked abt yan.
i felt bad 4 speakin my mind.
bt its alrite.i wanted dem 2 n0e anyway.
i dun hate him.i juz ch0se 2 4get i ever knew him.k?
chilled at b0wl aftr dat.till 2am.
ahha.
n 2 go home..
all tired n worn out..
onli 2 c ur parents sh0utin n screamin at each 0ther.
thr0win things arnd.
didnt even 0ccur 2 dem dat i juz gt back frm a tirin day at werk..
n im werkin d nxt morn..
i hate it.
i hate diz feelin of helplessness.
dey're b0th unst0pable.
i gif up.
i realli..gif up.
since dey dun care abt h0w i feel.
i wun care abt dem either.
i'll live life al0ne.
wif sch,frens,n my j0b.
it wasnt so hard b4.
wen i had a bf.
aah fuck.
hu cares.i'll survive.
its been 8 yrs..haiz..
0ccupyin my time wif werk n frens as much as p0ssible.
im feelin reali weak inside.
bt as usual,i choose nt 2 deal wif it.
i nid sum1.
any1.
Ladysweet Yani