.Tuesday, August 09, 2005 ' 10:38 am Y
i nvr meant 2 hurt any1.
nvr meant 2.
i noe ive made mistakes in d past.
sadly ppl haf misunderstood me.misjudged me.
dey had a bad impresssion of me then.n even now.
yes ive known alot of guys lately.
bt im nt a playgirl.-sum1 called me dat.
cudnt accept it.
i didnt flirt wif every single one of dem or use dem juz 4 their $$ or bike.
in fact,i talked 2 sum of dem using d language i tok 2 my other normal guy frens.
even vulgarities.
riri.he's d one im closest 2.
i noe d pics tell a diff story.
bt i made it clear 2 him dat i dun wan anythin further den wad we r now.
simply dating.
he doesnt control hu i wanna go out wif.
he gives me d freedom 2 date otha guys.
bcuz he noes he has no rite 2 control me.
n i respect dat.
he doesnt call me every few mins n treat me like his gf.
i was infatuated wif him.i admit dat.
bt its like..fadin alreadi.
we're simply like frens now.
d other guys.
yeah im meetin one of dem 2day.
gt 2 noe him yest at east coast.
derz 7 of dem.so wad?
im a slut den?a bitch?a flirt?
7.nt 20.nt 30.nt even 10!
ive known of gurls hu has probly a large no. of guys hu wanna get 2 noe dem.
how cum dey're nt looked dwn upon?
ive nt even met 3 of dem yet.
juz gettin 2 noe more peepz.
be it guys or gurls.
even if a gurl msg me n wanna b frens i'd b hapi 2.
hey.dats single life.
ur a guy sum more.
u haf more freedom 2 pick any gurl u wan.
dats ur rights.i wud b hapi 2 c u wif sum1 else.
so y cant u??
u noe wads ur prob?
u haf sumthin against me.dats wad it is.
u cudnt stand wad i did 2 u.
how ive moved on.
im a person hu wun look back once i start walkin again.geddit?
i dun even noe y ur so upset.
now look here.
im a gurl wif feelins.wif a heart.n brain.
no matter wad i do.my character.my attitude.
i still haf a heart.
n i dun wanna c u like diz.
i dun wanna hurt u any further.
u told me once.
like n love r 2 diff things.
i can like all of dem if i want 2.
bt wen i love sum1,i love him truly n gif my whole heart 2 him.
n onli him.
believe it or nt.
y did i end up like diz?
bcuz i was hurt.
despite dat,i still do believe in luv.
n i wun abuse it.
u cannt nail me 4 my mistakes in d past.
all dats history.
if u tink ive nt changed.
its up 2 u.
i treasure relationships.
n i treasure luv.
dats one of d reasons i help others hu haf probs in luv.
n i dun juz admit dat im in luv wif juz any guy.
get dat in ur head.
n u.
i tot ur hapi.
i tot we're through.
u didnt call.didnt even show me any sign dat u even wanna b frens wif me.
so y r u so upset?
arent u juz as bad?
playin wif an innocent gurl's feelings oso??
dun juz judge me frm wad i do.
im nt gonna apologize.
it wasnt my fault.in any angle.
u wanna despise me.go ahead.
narrow-minded.
nisa was rite.
Ladysweet Yani