.Saturday, July 09, 2005 ' 11:10 am Y
Tee.ur entry made me cry.
no nt tears of sadness.
was touched.
felt so much stronger.
thankew tee.i love u gf.=)
Its true.
i heard so many stories.
things happenin 2 others.
nvr xpected dat it will happen 2 me.
i learn alot thruout diz experience.
nt 2 take life 4 granted.
indulge in so much luxury,till i 4gt hu has given me all d comfort n happiness.
tee was rite.things happen 4 a reason.
it tot me 2 remember God.
nt 2 skip my prayers.
to thank d almighty 4 everythin He has given me.
nt 2
lupe diri.lupe dunia.anotha thing i learnt.
it doesnt mean dat u put prayer recitings/books all over ur hse,ur safe.
bcuz by rite,my room is d one full of prayer materials.Quran.
even ayat kursi.[muslims shud noe d power of diz]
n look wad happened.
spirits managed 2 enter.
take d revenge guys.
dey put prayer recitings at their bikes.
4 wad?4 protection.
dey tink dey r safe by putting all doz.
no ur nt.
d true power of d prayer is up 2 u.
u haveta recite it constantly.
get it in u.
dats when ur protected.
nvr take advantage of ur current situation.
no preaching too here.
no pressure.im nt askin every1 2 pray.
its up 2 every individual.
bt frm my xperience,
i learnt dat ive strived so much in life,
studyin hard 2 get dat olevel cert,diploma,n hopefully a degree.
4 wad?
4 my time here in diz world.
i totally did nt strive hard enuff 2 supply myself wif wad is needed afterlife.
i haf 2 b responsible.
dats all i can say.
my current situation?
so much stronger.
nizam has been goin 2 my hse often aftr work.
b der 4 me.
mum was glad i haf him by my side.
im so so blessed.
he is d one man hu sticked wif me thru all diz.
reminded me 2 wash my feet once i reach hm,2 pray,2 b strong.
so much support frm all my loved ones.
i can finalli stand up strong.
bt i still c things.
hear things.
was blastin d radio on one mornin.
it was sum1 reciting sum verses of d holy Quran.
n immediately one of my bears fell by itself.
rite in frnt of me.
i haf a room full of soft toys.
all which im gonna haf 2 throw away.
4 guud.
i heard stuff frm above,at midnite.
things dropping.
heard my window being wiped.screeching sounds.
i ignored all disturbances n continued reciting prayers.
n its been 3 nites without disturbances
n last nite,i slept soundly wif a beautiful dream after so long.
n d dream was abt nizam.=)
so far so guud.
been fightin diz.
its nt over yet.
d thing is still in me.
bt 'it' cannt disturb me bcuz of my prayers.
bt i noe i haf 2 get rid of it.
will continue my best.
hope 4 best ppl.=)
i want my old self back.
onli much stronger diz time.
been moving on as per normal.
sch.dance trainings.
yest was gr8.
after trainin it was arnd 7plus i walked out of sch
thru a loneli pathway,alone.
recited prayers.felt strong.
went 2 town.
met mum,her fren n sis.
nizam n anuar were der 2.
met him 4 awhile.
=)
been so lazy wif my looks lately.
nt in d state of mind 2 dress up.
hardly put on make-up even.
go 2 sch lookin so..ugly..boring..so pale..
bt nt 2day.
gonna b my old self again.
gonna cheer myself up.dress up.
goin town wif him.
just wad i need now.=)
dun b scared ok ppl.
im nt sayin everythin 2 scare any1.
b strong n hopefully nuthin will happen.
muuaacks.
Ladysweet Yani