.Thursday, February 24, 2005 ' 7:53 am Y
hmm.
gt a lil sh0ck yest.
dats it.
n0 anger at all.
i understand la.
n im s0 used 2 it.
bt sis nana n khai gt mad abt it.
dey sc0lded baby.
po0r him.
tried 2 reach me lyke mad 2 xplain.
bt i juz needed 2 b al0ne then.
i juz wanted 2 figure 0ut d wh0le thing.
i wanted 2 calm myself d0wn.
i kept askin myself 0ne thing.
y didnt he tell me all diz.
y muz i find 0ut thru sum1 else?
if u n0e me.
u'd n0e dat i wud rather 4give sum1
hu did sumthin wr0ng bt am h0nest enuff 2 tell me
den sum1 hu hide things frm me.
i wasnt mad abt wad she said.
abt their past n stuff.
i understand.
they shared 3 yrs 2gether.
i cannt erase dat frm his lyfe.
bt sis t0t he's g0nna bastard me.
n all hell br0ke l0ose.
haha.
quite funni 2 tink 0f it.
s0 many ppl defendin me.
pr0tectin me.
frm gettin hurt.
sc0ldin nizam.
when i myself was sittin at hm st0nin.
sumwhat unaffected.
bt i heard his xplanati0n.
n i lo0ked straight in2 his eyes.
he's tellin d truth.
i trust him.
plus derz 0ther pr0ves la im to0 lazy 2 say.
n lyke i said.
i understand.
i'll let byg0nes b byg0nes.
after 'nt wantin 2 ans his calls'.
met him at wdlands.
he rushed all d way frm werk straight.
th0 his mum f0rbid him frm g0in 0ut arnd dat tyme.
he lied 2 her.aiy0..
n he didnt eat.
as punishment.
he was s0 w0rried.
i was lyke.."relax la..im nt angry..y r u s0 w0rried sick 4?"
den i listened 2 everythin frm A-Z.
finally cleared my d0ubts.
den he br0ught me 2 seletar reserv0ir izzit d name?
yah.
r0mantic place 2 chill.
wit khai[r]ianty,razee n ijud.4give me if i spell ur names wr0ngly guys.hehe.
fun la.
bt me n my bo0 went 0ff 2 d benches.
spend tyme al0ne.
s0 calm der..
realli..
i l0ike.
n he sent me hm.
yishun der all d way 2 bed0k.
he must b dyin sia.
so0o0o l0ng.
even i gt tired.
he is s0 d luvin.
d0 u n0e dat.
gawd.lepak at my blk first.
den he cha0.
0k basically i realli2 lyke wat happened yest.
it pr0ved dat we b0th knew h0w 2 handle pr0bs d rite way.
n in return i learnt al0t abt him.
dun w0ri gurl.i'll take care 0f him.maybe he'll nvr luv me as much as he luved u 0nce..bt lets juz c h0w it g0es ya.erm..best 0f luck wit ur bf..nizam's in gd hands.been thru diz 0nce.
n ive ended up gainin hatred frm sum1 i hardly knew.
fightin like kids.
cuz 0f a guy.
n when u lo0k back.
its all nt w0rth it.
i dun wan d same thing 2 happen again.
2 all d peepz hu gave me supp0rt.sh0wed ur c0ncern.especially nasty n nana.i luv u ladies.u r0ck my w0rld!haha.life sure has its ups n d0wns.
im luvin it.s0..
tc every0ne!muuaacks!
Ladysweet Yani